Post by Just Richard on Dec 6, 2010 21:14:59 GMT -8
Mat Shaw lays on his bed at his apartment. His eyes seem to be focused on something far away. There are muffled words somewhere in the distance but he pays them no mind. Instead he speak softly to himself.
So here I am. Stuck with a decision I wouldn't have made on my own. Sure I was going to give the Count my service, even my allegiance, but fealty for life? Blood and bloody ashes. Now the entire court thinks I'm an idiot. Half of them want nothing to do with me, the other half wants to kill me. And then there's Caleb. I think he tried to kill me with magic this evening. At the least he tried to control me. I think I showed him that I have a few tricks that he isn't aware of. Serves the bastard right.
Era seems to be closer and closer to the surface these days. I don't know why, he just is. He's the reason I'm in this mess. Apparently someone (not naming names here) decided that the best way to stab a sidhe in the back would be to swear an oath, get close to him, and then destroy them.
Fucking. Idiot.
I have to get through this. Luckily Rene seems to know what my connection to Cauthon gives me in terms of skill. Although, I think that is moot as he is in the crowd of "people who want to kill me/think I'm an idiot." Great Creator, what the hell am I supposed to do? Sheila thinks that if I force more of the part of me that is Odin forward it will help subdue Era or at least sate his need for my destruction. I think that is a good idea, although, if Caleb gets his wish, I'm not going to survive long enough for it to matter. God, how I hate that man. Thinks himself the Creators gift to the Eshu kith. Bullshit is what that is. I almost had a right mind to stab him right there. God knows I had enough knives on my person to do it easily. But, no... restraint is the better part of valor and sometimes I do follow that tenant of the Seelie code. Sometimes. But if he hits me again, all bets are off. I will end him if I have to. I still have the box of nails I used on that Redcap, I know how to handle it without damaging myself and.... No. That won't fix a thing, I'd still die.
Perhaps... no, I don't think it'll work, but... maybe. I think an audience with Count Lenka is on the docket. Before he takes my eye, even. I'm no good to him if I'm dead or an Oathbreaker. Although, he's one who may end up going along with Caleb. Creator help me and I may get through this on top in the end. Era can shove it and all the rest of those who hate me can shove it too.
Mat turns his head to the wall on the far side of the room.
Sheila seems almost done. I think that I need to keep this from her. I hate doing it, but it'd only cause her more worry. I hate keeping things from her, but somethings are necessary to save delay.
Mat sighs and pulls the covers over his head before softly murmuring.
"Good night, Sheila, I'll see you tomorrowand I love you."
So here I am. Stuck with a decision I wouldn't have made on my own. Sure I was going to give the Count my service, even my allegiance, but fealty for life? Blood and bloody ashes. Now the entire court thinks I'm an idiot. Half of them want nothing to do with me, the other half wants to kill me. And then there's Caleb. I think he tried to kill me with magic this evening. At the least he tried to control me. I think I showed him that I have a few tricks that he isn't aware of. Serves the bastard right.
Era seems to be closer and closer to the surface these days. I don't know why, he just is. He's the reason I'm in this mess. Apparently someone (not naming names here) decided that the best way to stab a sidhe in the back would be to swear an oath, get close to him, and then destroy them.
Fucking. Idiot.
I have to get through this. Luckily Rene seems to know what my connection to Cauthon gives me in terms of skill. Although, I think that is moot as he is in the crowd of "people who want to kill me/think I'm an idiot." Great Creator, what the hell am I supposed to do? Sheila thinks that if I force more of the part of me that is Odin forward it will help subdue Era or at least sate his need for my destruction. I think that is a good idea, although, if Caleb gets his wish, I'm not going to survive long enough for it to matter. God, how I hate that man. Thinks himself the Creators gift to the Eshu kith. Bullshit is what that is. I almost had a right mind to stab him right there. God knows I had enough knives on my person to do it easily. But, no... restraint is the better part of valor and sometimes I do follow that tenant of the Seelie code. Sometimes. But if he hits me again, all bets are off. I will end him if I have to. I still have the box of nails I used on that Redcap, I know how to handle it without damaging myself and.... No. That won't fix a thing, I'd still die.
Perhaps... no, I don't think it'll work, but... maybe. I think an audience with Count Lenka is on the docket. Before he takes my eye, even. I'm no good to him if I'm dead or an Oathbreaker. Although, he's one who may end up going along with Caleb. Creator help me and I may get through this on top in the end. Era can shove it and all the rest of those who hate me can shove it too.
Mat turns his head to the wall on the far side of the room.
Sheila seems almost done. I think that I need to keep this from her. I hate doing it, but it'd only cause her more worry. I hate keeping things from her, but somethings are necessary to save delay.
Mat sighs and pulls the covers over his head before softly murmuring.
"Good night, Sheila, I'll see you tomorrowand I love you."