Post by Mike Lohmann on Sept 16, 2013 3:16:51 GMT -8
Some things, you never expect.
Life is full of ups and downs. In the darkest of days, through the greatest of tragedies, the undertow of pain, there is always hope.
Some things will crush you. Take you to the brink of destruction, and leave you there to suffer or disappear. But there is always hope. Strength does not appear, it is built. Stability is not given, it is earned. Friends to not appear, they are made. Love is not a birth right, it is a privilege and a gift.
It has taken me nearly 30 years to come to these revelations, but through all the darkness I have found the light again. Sorrow, doubt, despair, fear, mistrust, and depression have attacked me over and over again. This is true for most. But with time and a desire to change, I see things much clearer now and become self aware.
I used to see only the faults in others, but now I see them in myself, too. Through great loss, and the desire and will to be healthy again in every sense of the word, I have gained footing again in life. I have seen the error in my ways and work hard every single day to not just fix them, but to truly heal.
More friends. Better health. Greater happiness. These are just a few of these things that I am gaining and have gained. The best and nearly fully complete me.
With this comes fear of the unknown. Like sitting in the dark, with nothing but your mind to tell you what terrible things can get you at any moment. But when the light comes on, the truth is most of it was just in your head.
So here I am, getting past my insecurities. Seeing the world in a new way. It is terrifying, but I have wonderful friends and family to help draw me slowly back into the dawn of a beautiful new day. To show me that things that I feared, are to be overcome. To give things a chance. And from it, reached levels of happiness I have never experienced.
None knows what the future holds for them, but I can tell you this...
For the first time ever, I am not afraid. <3
Life is full of ups and downs. In the darkest of days, through the greatest of tragedies, the undertow of pain, there is always hope.
Some things will crush you. Take you to the brink of destruction, and leave you there to suffer or disappear. But there is always hope. Strength does not appear, it is built. Stability is not given, it is earned. Friends to not appear, they are made. Love is not a birth right, it is a privilege and a gift.
It has taken me nearly 30 years to come to these revelations, but through all the darkness I have found the light again. Sorrow, doubt, despair, fear, mistrust, and depression have attacked me over and over again. This is true for most. But with time and a desire to change, I see things much clearer now and become self aware.
I used to see only the faults in others, but now I see them in myself, too. Through great loss, and the desire and will to be healthy again in every sense of the word, I have gained footing again in life. I have seen the error in my ways and work hard every single day to not just fix them, but to truly heal.
More friends. Better health. Greater happiness. These are just a few of these things that I am gaining and have gained. The best and nearly fully complete me.
With this comes fear of the unknown. Like sitting in the dark, with nothing but your mind to tell you what terrible things can get you at any moment. But when the light comes on, the truth is most of it was just in your head.
So here I am, getting past my insecurities. Seeing the world in a new way. It is terrifying, but I have wonderful friends and family to help draw me slowly back into the dawn of a beautiful new day. To show me that things that I feared, are to be overcome. To give things a chance. And from it, reached levels of happiness I have never experienced.
None knows what the future holds for them, but I can tell you this...
For the first time ever, I am not afraid. <3