Post by Denise on Mar 21, 2010 9:50:37 GMT -8
Rae lays in bed at home,
'Jean isn't like many other garou I have met. He has been rather unfortunate or "cursed" as someone else has conveyed to me. I feel as though it doesn't matter to me. Though I try to distance myself for my own safeties sake. No you cannot have my M-16 Jean, I don't trust you. He deserves, no he needs to live. Is he a lost cause, maybe. Does he need to learn to stop talking, most of the time. Which is exactly what I have decided to try to do.
I am furious at people. The lecturing goes on and on. You need to do something. You need to prove yourself. You are going to die. Nice people, like he doesn't know that. How about you stop lecturing for five seconds and talk to him. Not as a ria, or someone who is "better" than he is. But as a person who is genuinely concerned for him. If you are going to try to beat sense into him, Visili has already tried. And I'm sure his hand was heavier than any other. Sometimes tough love only spurs resentment and hate, not the will to prove one's self. Offer your help and let him prove himself like he is meant to. If he doesn't, then you tried.
Jean deserves to live like all other things. There are not enough Garou left to be killing others (wyrm tainted not included). If he didn't at least deserve to the slightest bit, he'd already be dead.
He has so much potential to offer in the long run.
He has lessons to learn undoubtedly. But so do many others. And when the time comes for their chance to learn and fail, I'm not sure I will feel the concern and sorrow I feel for Jean. All based on their actions today. I think this most of all crushes the part of me that respects and cherishes life, even of the smallest variety.
Asking Visili to bring someone along isn't my idea of a good time. Especially someone who is viewed by many ask weak. It's not something I feel he tolerates well. But if I have to beg for it, I will. If he screws up and costs our pack.... well currently either way he is dead.'
I close my eyes to go to sleep, trying not to envision my conversation with my alpha and the cost I might have to pay in the end for trying to help someone.
'Jean isn't like many other garou I have met. He has been rather unfortunate or "cursed" as someone else has conveyed to me. I feel as though it doesn't matter to me. Though I try to distance myself for my own safeties sake. No you cannot have my M-16 Jean, I don't trust you. He deserves, no he needs to live. Is he a lost cause, maybe. Does he need to learn to stop talking, most of the time. Which is exactly what I have decided to try to do.
I am furious at people. The lecturing goes on and on. You need to do something. You need to prove yourself. You are going to die. Nice people, like he doesn't know that. How about you stop lecturing for five seconds and talk to him. Not as a ria, or someone who is "better" than he is. But as a person who is genuinely concerned for him. If you are going to try to beat sense into him, Visili has already tried. And I'm sure his hand was heavier than any other. Sometimes tough love only spurs resentment and hate, not the will to prove one's self. Offer your help and let him prove himself like he is meant to. If he doesn't, then you tried.
Jean deserves to live like all other things. There are not enough Garou left to be killing others (wyrm tainted not included). If he didn't at least deserve to the slightest bit, he'd already be dead.
He has so much potential to offer in the long run.
He has lessons to learn undoubtedly. But so do many others. And when the time comes for their chance to learn and fail, I'm not sure I will feel the concern and sorrow I feel for Jean. All based on their actions today. I think this most of all crushes the part of me that respects and cherishes life, even of the smallest variety.
Asking Visili to bring someone along isn't my idea of a good time. Especially someone who is viewed by many ask weak. It's not something I feel he tolerates well. But if I have to beg for it, I will. If he screws up and costs our pack.... well currently either way he is dead.'
I close my eyes to go to sleep, trying not to envision my conversation with my alpha and the cost I might have to pay in the end for trying to help someone.
